Living for Now

... and the airbag goes off... time to take your foot off the gas!

I am not going to be able to do the Lakeside II Triathlon.

Feels good to say that. I have been fretting about it. My life has been spinning and it's time I got off. Maybe it has something to do with 09/09/09!

I have been so worried about the past, the future, work, what people think, what they haven't been doing for me, what I haven't been doing for them, what I will do next and so many other frivolous things, I forgot to LIVE!

Many things contributed to me screeching to a halt but two very important ones were my health and the health of loved ones.

I'm okay... don't fret... but suffice it to say something scared me enough to take better care of myself. And seeing loved ones suffer opened my eyes. I have been so caught up in insignificant things I'm lucky to have the chance to try and make it better.

I want to laugh more, I want to love better, I want to get outside, I want to appreciate what I have, in essence, I just want to BE!

I can't believe how much my mind has been taking over my ability to feel REAL gratitude, REAL joy, REAL love, REAL life!

I feel like I have been swimming behind a boat that was sinking anyway... BIG gaping hole!

Okay...now I'm starting to feel like Jerry McGuire when he releases his "mission statement" and promptly gets fired!

'Nuff said. You get the drift.

Time to:
 
Keep It Simple - BE
 
...at least for me anyway!