Fitness goal - wrought with doubt and fear!

I have finally decided on a goal and just writing it here has been the scariest part... the one I've been procrastinating about till now! Writing it here makes me accountable. Gulp!

I haven't shared this with many of you but to remain motivated and going to the gym... watching what I eat in moderation... I need a GOAL!

I've been rotating on the wheel of guilt for way too long and I want OFF! By the wheel of guilt I mean if I don't hit the gym as much as I figure I should, the guilt sets in. When the guilt sets in, my brain thinks it has to rebel and say, "Firetruck it!" and do some serious damage on whatever tasty fat-filled morsel comes to mind that I can get my hands on... Then I feel guilty and I tell myself, "It's okay... you're allowed to cheat every once in awhile... you're HUMAN!" Why don't I feel human when I can't seem to get control of my cravings and control of my expanding waistline? Off... I say... I want OFF of the wheel of guilt! I feel like I'm spinning around as the human target on a giant bullseye and someone is throwing donuts at the wheel! STOP already!

So I was looking for a fitness goal that would really get me in shape and is attainable. I was hemming and hawing until I saw my friend Vicki's picture on Facebook and I remarked  how fit she looks (she's been my friend since high school) She replied that she and her hubbie are training for a half marathon! I told her how great it was and remembered maybe 5 or so years back when I ran one. It took a lot of training but I was likely in the best shape of my life. WAY back when I first moved to London, the weekend I moved I did a sprint triathlon. I trained to do the 40k bike portion of a full length relay triathlon that summer and on a whim and with the coaxing of a buddy, I signed up for the sprint about a month after the relay. I finished it... it certainly wasn't pretty but I didn't finish last in my age group!

So I started trying to figure out what I can do and how I can do it. I looked up sprint triathlons here and there's one in Lakeside in late September and as I shake in my shoes as I write this... I am going to do it! Yep, I'm going to train 9 weeks to finish a sprint triathlon!

OK. What the heck did I do?

Suggestions and encouragement are welcome... because Lord knows, the Wheel of Guilt is always looming over me... How do you keep it at bay? This is going to be tough because no one is coaching/prodding me. It's just me and every excuse I have ever used not to exercise.

HELP?!

Here's the plan... it's in minutes:

For this week, I'm riding my bike to work to get into the groove and I'm starting my runs again. Next week, I'll work on the strength training and then put this rough training schedule into action!

Again... your help is not only requested... it's REQUIRED!

Wish me luck!